People can never understand, will they?
-MINAHIL ZULFIQAR
How A little loud speaking of their hits me
How the way they speak, look and act cuts me
I got panic as throbbing pain surge in my stomach
Nobody to give me a hug is around, but myself
I gotta leave, run and find any corner
My legs are trembling, and my hands are shivering
It’s cold outside but I’m sweating
Felt like my lungs gonna flare & muscles of my heart valves gonna tear
In the bathroom mirror, I saw my tears falling down
And feel so helpless with what I can’t control
But “it’s ok it’s alright,”
I told myself I look so pathetic when looking myself
I felt My head is spinning and my heart is heavy
It felt like bricks are resting on my chest
I make my arms cross and hold myself tight
I patted myself and tried to smile
Salty waters from reddish eyes ruined my kajal
I calm myself with deep frustration
I quest myself why I am like this
My heart so fragile and small, it breaks so often
At very small things, it shatters
Why every little thing that much matters
Ah! I’m such a weakling coward
It’s hard to be stronger enough
Anxiety
